miss him so much...

last thursday...i did something yg i tak penah terfikir i mampu buat...im not sure whether ianya benda paling bodoh i penah buat or paling berani yg penah i lakukan or maybe both kot..hehe.but i tak nyesal pun infact rasa lega just after i buat..but..since then, i felt empty, kosong (empty ngan kosong tu bukan sama ke)..x der semangat..rasa cam need to talk to him...nk ngadu about everything..mcm yg slalu i buat b4 ni,dia orang pertama yg i cari if i need to talk to someone,yg akan mendengar suma rungutan i, yg tak penah jemu menasihati i yg degil nih, yg tak kedekut dan berkira utk luangkan masa (walaupun dia sendiri sibuk) utk temankan i, yg akan ketawa dgn all my stupid jokes,yg sentiasa sabar n senyum jer bila i marah2,yg lebih gembira dari myself bila i lulus exam,yg dgn rela hatinya jd my defender bila i kena marah dgn mak,yg sentiasa encourage me utk capai apa yg i impikan, yg sanggup tgk bumper kereta kesayangan dia kemek skit gara2 nk ajar i drive.pendek kata,he always there for me no matter what..that is why...walaupun tahun ni tahun ke-5 dia xder, i still rasa kehilangan yg amat..kdg2 i rasa mcm dia still ader around here,but i tak boleh nk ckp ngan dia,nk text dia, nk ngadu like we used to be,how i missed him terribly...missed him so much..so friends, what im supposed to do...mmg imposibble to forget him..but at least to minimize rasa rindu kt dia? i've been trying for more than 4 years...anyway...al-fatihah to my late paksu Zulkarnain Bin Munip...moga Allah meletakkan rohmu di kalangan orang2 yg beriman...amin...